Society

I was moved from the city to the suburb 2 weeks ago. I'm not satisfy with here cause the house I'm staying is made from wood and not that convenience, I have to take a train just for my lunch. When my course start, I have to travel nearly 1 hour to the city. But most of the people do the same here like the way I'm doing now. They think it's normal because you can save some money by living in suburb area. I just not so used to it maybe I never live in a suburb area before. Anyhow I just have to used to it. Meanwhile I get a job here as well in a super market, thanks to my aunty's friend. My aunty's friend, aunty Marry, she is quite nice when I first know her but I don't think the same now. The house I'm staying here belongs to her as well. I met some friends over here, 2 of my housemates, 1 is aunty Marry's newphew and another 1 is her god brother, some from my work place. So, at first I think she is nice because I get a cheap room in her place, free food sometimes but not always depends on the condition and a job as well but something made my mind changed.

Lets start from the cheap room. The god brother told me a lot of aunty Marry's past, I mean within this house. Before me, that was other people who rent this place but they had moved out because they don't like the attitude of aunty Marry because she is kind the calculative and selfish and money face. This uncle consider a relative to aunty Marry but in her eye only money but not relationship. The uncle been here for nearly 3 years. When he first arrived here, she never teach him about this country, the lifestyle here, the culture, the way of living here and etc. Luckily I get my lovely cousin to teach me most of the things about this county once I reached here. Last time the rental he paid was included with the electric, water and gas. But after a while the electic, water and gas was not included anymore, aunty Marry told him because the price of those stuffs increased. He is paying $450 per month for his room same as me now. I got a Shanghai friend which is my workmate, he told me that the place he is renting now $400 per month everything included even the internet and the condition of the house is better than this because as least it's not wooden house. *Gosh* now you guy understand what I mean by money face and selfish? I had this idea to move out when I know all this but scolded by Siew Hong because he said it's not steady enough because I don't know this place well enough to move here and move there, later other problems occur again and again and I never had solved them all at the end. No choice afterall, the purpose I came here is just to study so just leave those stupid stuffs behind but I have to really becarefull with the society here and a lot of things I have to learn.

Now with the free food. She told my uncle which is in Malaysia that she will prepare food for me depends on the condtion, well she did it, there was really free lunch for me, 3 times total up together within this 2 weeks. Actually when you get something free, it's better than nothing free so I just can't be too calculative on that. If she prepared for me, I will take it if not I will just have to settled it by my own since I have to eat what. Meanwhile something interesting that day when I was having my lunch during my lunch time in my work place suddenly aunty Marry appears, she told me that the rice was prepared by her husband today 7 in the morning but she is just eating the porridge which left yesterday. And she indirectly ask me to pay my rental because this month rental I haven paid yet. At first, I thought she was just kidding since I stay there less than 2 weeks and I'm thinking of paying her once I get my salary but the boss haven return from her trip yet but after that the uncle, aunty Marry's god brother told me about those past story of her and I think once again I can confirm that what kind of person is this aunty Marry. She scare I ran off by not paying her the rental. Lolx...

And now, with this job, the lowest salary afterall and this super market need people badly because not much of the people willing to work there. $7 per hour the lowest salary. The customer asked me about the salary I'm taking, when I told them, they was like : " Wa, your boss so clever ar! " What you think of this answer? Let me tell you, this is because the boss pay less and get hard working people because we have to arrange goods, send goods, when the goods arrived to the warehouse, we have to moving those goods. It's not easy and most the goods are heavy that's why during the goods arriving day, there is not much people willing to go for work. They will give excuses that they are having class and etc. Work like a dog get $7 per hour. Part time job the lowest salary should be $9 per hour. Anyhow I just work for fun since I have nothing to do and I can get some extra income.

I always update my cousin regarding my status here because she is the only person who are really caring me here, teach me a lot of things and she was in this country too. When I told her about this aunty Marry, she said she knew this all will hapen by the day I told her I'm going to move to aunty Marry's place because she know that the society in this country there is no such super kind people anymore, everyone is selfish and money face, somemore I'm not any relative to aunty Marry but even I am, in aunty Marry mind is still money. Lolx... Anyhow I have to take good care of myself becarefull all the time. God bless me. I will work hard in everything to achieve my gold!

First post for 2010

It's been a long time after my last post. Not that I'm lazy to update it but just nothing for me to write because everything went smooth, nothing to complain about it. I would rather not to update my blog instead of updating it.

I'm would like to start from my study. I'm in Melbourne now, taking the Bachelor's Degree course but I had a very difficult time here. It's already 3 weeks, I felt lonely here, no friends, stress a lot and etc. Everything is new for me here, the University system here, lifestyle here, culture, bank system and lots more. The course I took, I get an exemption for 1 year but I cancelled it and went back to year 1, I thought it will be easier but it's still the same. I lost my basic for my Maths and Physics. In the University, they lecturer assume we know the basic very well so they just keep on teaching according the notes. I had a super difficult time here because each time I went to the lecture, I just have no idea what those lecturers are teaching. Not that I don't understand their language but the basics are missing from my head. Maths formulars, solutions, maths theory, Physics formulars and etc. In the University, everythings go online. From notes, subject informations, contact details for the lecturer , timetable, enrollment and etc. It's so not same with the college I had studied last time. The standard gap is just way too big. At last I had decided to drop the course and go to foundation just to refresh my basics. It is a suggestion from my coordiantor as well. I guess I need to put more effort on the foundation so that I won't have problem once I get back to the Bachelor's Degree course again. Engineering is just not a easy subject.

Besides that, I'm just not so happy with my relationship problem. Ya, everyone know that I'm still single since I started to blog. But I went back to my relationship after my last post with my ex girlfriend. I trusted this is all fate. But eventually we are having problems again. The first problem we had it long time ago since before I start to blog. It maybe just because of the distance thing. Now is getting more worst, I'm in Australia and she is in Malaysia. Some people told me, distance not the main factor for a relationship in some cases. Like my cousin sister, she is in Melbourne now and her boyfriend is in Malaysia. All this years, they are still together and they are planning to marry next year. Why other people can get through all this but not for us? She been saying that still got other problems but she just don't know how to tell me about it, it's her problems. Maybe she was right all this time, she been suffering from lonelyness because I'm not there when she needed me. Those problems occur long time ago between us. But we haven really solve it out, I just have no idea. I guess I need to put this to the fate and trusted on it.

Stopped My Current Course

Yeah... Finally I had done it. LOL... I stopped the aircraft course in a sudden yesterday. Actually this few weeks, I'm wondering whether I really want to stop it or not.

So, yesterday I was in the class room didn't ponteng. When the lecturer marking the attendance, he called my name and he said I quite sometimes didn't attend the class. Then he said, whether I want to main tipu-tipu count the attendance back or just let it be but before that I must remember, up there always got two eyes, the GOD will know everythings. That time I was busy copying the previous notes from my friend so I didn't really pay attention to what the fuck he is saying. Just look at him and smiles only. Follow by other people attendance, in a sudden he start up somethings. My course actually is a refresher course for those who are working in the aircraft industrial but this time they open to public for the first time. My class not all are from the aircraft industrial. Some from other colleges or different industrials, ex students from the current college also got. Mostly are from automotive department where I'm belongs to as well. But I'm from the Diploma side and other are from the MLVK side. Those MLVk guys worst than me, got so many problems. Then the lecturer spoke to my HOD before this, so he knew among us there are some who having this attitude problem. Then he asked us don't waste time, go and look for a job, don't think that after we completed this course we can work in an aircraft industrial. For me, I'm really wasting my time there and I don't hope to get a job in aircraft industrial also. I think I got this attitude problem as well, just because I keep on skipping my class. Then he keep on saying the word "AUTO PEOPLE". I was like... Not dulan lah. Just he keep on said and said, it helped me to open my mind bigger. Then I was like, " Yeah...later call my uncle and quit the damn course since so siens".
During break time, I straight a way call my uncle. I told him I want to quit the course because I had no interest on it and I think it is too waste of time. Somore I keep ponteng. He said to me, " Can meh?". That time, I actually already knew that the course can be stopped half way, then I said, " I try and see first, see can or not". The next thing I did was, I went to the office and said that I want to stop. So, now really stop jor. LOL...

Another thing is the Management in the college. Last weekend I went to IDP, an agency for further study in Australia. So the agent asked me to get a letter from the college to proof the English is the medium of instruction and the syllabus of Diploma. So I went to the Registry Department request for the letter and the syllabus. I have to pad RM10 per item. The letter not much procedure, just fill up a form and THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS YOU MUST PAY THE MONEY FIRST! I understand that loh. So I went to the Finance Department at 3rd floor, paid it and get back to the lowest floor wait for my letter. But the letter need 2-3 hours to process it. Walan! So I need to went back to my apartment and come back again later. When I get back, I get the letter jor but the syllabus I have to pay it for RM10 because just now when I'm applying the letter they don't know the price yet. Ok! So now I went to 3rd floor and come down again, get a form filled up by the Registry Department and went to another department called as MIA department. The person who incharge for this told me, the syllabus she don't has any extra copies so I need to get it tomorrow and then she asked me, " You got bring any documents to proof that you are trying to apply the University?". I said No lah. Then she said if like this she can't give me the syllabus. I was like... WHAT THE FUCK! JUST A SYLLABUS NEED SO MAFAN MEH?! Since Registry Department also filled up the form and sign on it, I still need to proof what? If I want to lie also won't lie your syllabus lah. Aduh..! But is ok, I said I will bring it tomorrow since I have to take my syllabus as well.

So here it is, just now only. I went to the MIA Department with the check list that given by the agent, it stated there I need a syllabus of my course. When I reach the MIA, she called the Registry Department, said that I'm there and follow by the Indian language that I don't know. After she hang the phone, she ask me to go down to the Registry Department and fill up a form again. Walan... This time I really dulan jor, get a thing from the college, I have to pay, walk here walk there, wait here wait there, tell me cock things, wasting my time. WHAT THE FUCK! THEY CAN'T SAY IT ONE SHOT BUT THEY NEED TO SAY FOR FEW TIMES. WHEN PROBLEMS COME, THEY START TO BLAME OTHER DEPARTMENTS. DNS~~!! Luckily she said sorry to me if not I sure shoot her liao. I have to go back to the lowest floor again since the MIA at the 2nd floor. After I get the damn form, I went back to MIA and show her the form and the check list from the agent. She said that the check list can't proof anything so she can't give me the syllabus but just a Module Outline and she asked me which University I'm going to apply. That time I just bring the check list but it didn't stated about the University. I said to her, I'm trying to apply, what documetation you need to proof that I'm applying? An offer letter? Haven apply how come got offer letter? Then she started to talk cock liao. I really can't tahan jor so I said to her if you want to know anything about the University please ask Mr.Murge (Chief Administrator of the college), he is the one who look for me the agency, he can proof it for me. Then she diam jor. I said to her, I will try to use the Module Outline first if can't only I will come again. After that I called the agent, she told me that it should be ok with just the Module Outline, if the University request for other documentation then only see how.
I really don't understand, a syllabus only need so mafan, I think maybe the college been doing something bad so they can't just give their syllabus to anyone else, if want give also sure will talk a lot of cock things. They don't know that we also in a terrible situation. If any documentation needed by the University not sufficient, I need to come and back between KL and Seremban all the time. Money and time also wasted. DNS~! Really dulan.

I'm So LanC

For some reasons I'm being so LanC. Why I said so? Let me gives you all some examples. Last Friday night, I was in KL. So i asked a friend of mine to yamcha. He is son of an uncle who play online game with me last time. LOL... While we yamcha-ing, he called his sister, that time his sister is going to clubbing so he thinks that we might be joining his sister later on. But too bad, sounds like his sister don't want us to join in. So my friend decided to bring me to Coco Banana and have some beers over there.

In Coco Banana, there was a lot of girls, got leng lui, got pork chop, got under age and etc. So, here comes my LanC attitude. Seriously I don't like to look at those girls. Once got lah. But not like looking all the time. If not, later those girls will think " wah, that guy keep on looking at me, like hamsap lou or they see me leng lui want to kao me ?". Some guys are really enjoying to know new girls, go in front of them and get their phone number. I had once asked them, what you do after you asked their number? You guys called her? SMS her? How if, the girl think that you are so annoying? Their will reply you lah at the first but slowly I think their will just don't bother you at all. Most of the guys will said, never mind lah, at least I'm enjoying the process. OMFG! For me, is like just wasting my time. I rather stand a side drinking and smoking.

Same in the Internet, sometimes guys will go facebook or friendster get some new friends, add their MSN and start to chat. But normally, guys will only add if the girl is leng. Haha... this is so fucking true. Go and ask most of your male friends. I did the same as well. Haha... But sometimes you will come across those really so siens type or LanC type. The girl is just not so willing to chat with you. NOT their fault you know. Just that when a stranger added you up and chat with you, you just don't really feel like what also can chat lah. So, what I did is, if I come across this type of people, I just don't bother them when I get to know they are so siens or just not so willing to chat. I think is better this way. For a leng lui, sure many guys will add her up and chat with her. She will get annoying you know? Because too many people trying to MSN her. But on the opposite way, if he is this leng lui geh friend? For sure she will chat with this guy. Why? The reason is just so simply. Because she knows him, she don't feel annoying to chat with him. I had come across so many times. Some leng lui, when i know her the first time, they are not so willing to chat but never mind loh, I just don't bother. But for some reason and this reason is what I called as FATE appears! Then we become so talkactive all the times. LOL... Not once, but mostly I had come across.

Thats why I said, I'm so so so LanC. One more thing is that when u met some one, if nice to talk with then talk more lah, if not, don't talk so frequent. They will think that you are so annoying! The facts that support this statement is the girl will think that maybe you want to kao them or maybe you think she is leng lui so just want to kacao-kacao. But the girls never think that, there are a lot of people who just want to be a friend and chit-chat.
NOT ALL MALES ARE SO POKAI, BUT LANC HERE GOT ONE. LOL !

Hope For The Future

I'm wondering what you guy will react when you doing something that you are not interested in? No matter it is what, I mean it could be study, sport, any type of activities and lot more. I'm currently taking a course that I'm not interested in like what I had mentioned before in my blog, it is boring and I had skipped classes a lot of times. Haha... Same as today, I skipped the class AGAIN. I woke up and telling myself I want to skip the class. Haha... really sounds stupid hor? But i did it. I think I can't finish this course at the end. I found a university finally that offers the course that I want to study. It is in Australia. I'm so excited actually and trying to apply it as soon as possible so that i can made it for the coming intake on Feb 2010. I want to made it fast because I already wasted most of my time. If I can made it to Australia then I will straight a head stop my course. It will be better in this way. Haha... Since I also not in a good mood to continue the course I'm currently taking. Hopefully all will be ok, like what I'm expecting. Haha...

Interesting E-mail

Here comes another weekend again... Haha... Time is flying like Superman... So fast ar! Today i plan to skip my class again. Haha... Not full day la but just half day. I got a reason to skipping the class leh. Maybe one of you out there sure says I'm giving excuse but actually not leh, I really got a reason on it. xD ... So, my lecturer Mr.Sugu is a pure mechanical lecturer. He do know some electric system but not pro as those electrical lecturer la. Then today my class start with the electrical topic. The lecturer also have to be changed for temporary. Haha... Lets start with some intro for this electrical lecturer. His name is Mr.Joseph and he is an Indian from INDIA not born in Malaysia one. LOL... he can speak English so well but the problem is ... there is this india slang coming out. The whole class not fully understand what is he talking about, neither Malay nor Indian. LOL... and the only Chinese here(ME) sure understand half half only la. So I decide to skip his class, come back and online. Haha...

While I'm checking my mail, I get a very interesting and meaningfull E-mail. It is in chinese but I'm going to translate it into English by using Google Translate. But I still need to translate a bit because the Google Translate a bit weird. =.=" I'm sorry for any broken English ar. Haha... So, I will post the chinese version first then follow by the english version.


女孩给男孩发了条短消息：如果家里穷困潦倒到只有一碗稀饭面对着我们两人，你会把稀饭里的米给我吃吗？
男孩回消息：这还用说吗？但是我认为一个真正爱那个女孩的男孩，就不应该让自己心爱的女人过如此生活。
女孩回消息：可有一个人的回答是这样！他说，不！我会把整碗的米连同稀粥都给她喝。这短短的对话会不会感动所有女人我不知道，可我却被深深打动。
男孩回消息：那么连这一碗稀粥也没有，那个男人会怎么做呢？！或者有没有想到那一碗稀饭女孩吃了是不是还肚子饿呢？！
女孩认为，男孩应该像那个男孩那样回答：不！我会把米和稀粥都给你喝！才是真正完美，标准，唯一的答案。
因为男孩没有按女孩的意思回答好这个问题，女孩和男孩背对背睡了一夜，男孩几次想拥她入睡都被女孩拒绝。
上天有时总是有些不尽人意。


后来女孩和男孩走到一起的时候，由于种种原因，他们真的遇上了类似于只有一碗稀饭喝的日子。那天，男孩悄悄地给女孩留个言：亲爱的，我吃过了，桌上给你留了碗稀饭，你把它喝完。女孩喝完那晚稀饭，小憩一会的时候。男孩从外面回来，给女孩带回来她喜欢吃的羊肉串，水果，奶茶。男孩对女孩说，他找了份临时工作，刚挣的钱，老板答应先付一部分工资。说完还拿出口袋的钱在女孩面前晃了晃。“亲爱的慢慢吃！我已经在外面吃过了。”说完还做了个调皮的鬼脸。在最困难的那段日子，女孩依旧快乐的幸福着，男孩倒好像由于工作劳累，身体有些不适。


后来，男孩有了工作，女孩和男孩对他们未来的幸福充满美丽的憧憬。女孩喜欢看电视，看到电视中报道多年前在一场大地震中，一位母亲和孩子被压在废墟下，母亲的奶水被孩子吃尽时，母亲咬开了自己手上的血管，用自己的鲜血喂孩子，数天后，人们终于扒开废墟下的母子，母亲已经血流殆尽离开了人世，嘴角的粘着母亲鲜血的孩子带着天真的笑容，红嘟嘟的鲜艳小脸蛋获得了新生。女孩问男孩，如果我们俩被压在废墟下，你会像那位母亲样用你的血液使我活下来吗？男孩对女孩的言语间竟有些激动。他对女孩说不要老是有这样那样的怪念头好吗？你是我的女人，我会尽我所能的让我的女人幸福，在任何你的生命和安全受到威胁的时候，我会不顾一切的保护好你。你是我的最爱，我也不允许你把种种不好的推测用到你的身上，亲爱的。


周末，一个阳光明媚的上午，男孩挽着女孩的手，兴冲冲地逛了一个上午，买了好多女孩喜欢吃的零食和她喜欢的衣服走在回家的路上。两个幸福的小人儿，再穿过一个路口，就能到达他们共同构筑的爱的小巢——他们幸福的小堂。男孩一手挽着女孩，一手拎着买来的东西，男孩在前，女孩在后，两人走在斑马线上，就要穿过马路了，突然一辆右转弯车辆，直直地向离男孩一步之遥的后面的女孩疾速驶来，眨眼的功夫，汽车就要撞到女孩。“砰！”的一声闷响后紧跟着汽车紧急刹车的声音。一切来得那么突然，被撞者轻飘飘的飞向两米开外。路面上是一片刺眼的鲜血的红。“不！不要！”由于惊吓刚刚回过神来的女孩，歇斯底里地凄惨叫声撞击着每个围观者的耳膜。女孩明白，汽车本来是撞向她的，在常人来不及反应的一刹那间的零点几秒里，男孩却惊奇地把她推开了，自己倒在血泊里。女孩哭喊着扑到男孩身边，男孩浑身是血，女孩大声地呼唤着男孩名字，围观者说没用了，已经试过男孩没有呼吸了。女孩不相信，继续呼唤着男孩的名字，男孩竟然奇迹般的睁开了眼睛，看了女孩一眼，带着安详地微笑，永远闭上了眼睛。女孩明白，男孩在生命的最尽头还在苦苦挣扎，拼尽最后一丝气力看到自己的亲爱的小女人安然无恙了，才放心地闭上眼睛。


那是个多雨的季节，到处充满了潮湿，雨水把天地连成雾蒙蒙一片。两个人构筑的爱情小巢，现在只剩下女孩一个人，女孩浮想起以前两人在一起的点点滴滴。女孩后悔那次不该因为男孩没有按自己的意思回答她问题，背对着他睡了一夜，后悔男孩几次欲拥她入睡，都被她拒绝。她现在好想紧紧的拥着男孩，把那一夜的背对背补回来，可是再也无法也不可能补回来。女孩习惯了逛马路时，身边有一个人紧紧的握住她的手，不用担心那些川流不息的汽车。男孩总是自己走在有汽车的一方让她走在远离汽车的另一边。女孩好想再抓住那种安全感，可是怎么抓也抓不住。女孩睡觉前，习惯了，有人给她唱着歌讲着故事入睡，现在再也没有人为她唱歌讲故事，她总是难以入睡。女孩睡觉时，喜欢踹被子，男孩总是在每一次她踹掉被子时及时的醒来给她重新盖好。现在那个人再也不能哪怕为她盖一次被子。女孩喜欢吃零食，男孩每次从外面回到家里总能给她个小谗猫带来惊喜，安慰她的小肚肚，现在她的小肚肚多少天再也没有人安慰。女孩喜欢吃瓜子，喜欢吃板栗，喜欢吃橘子，却不喜欢剥皮儿，女孩每次畅快淋漓的大吃特吃完瓜子，板栗，橘子后，男孩的面前总是堆起一堆果皮山，现在由于剥皮吃那些东西太费劲，她好久没敢碰那些想吃不能吃的好东西。女孩现在有太多的不习惯，她只能学着慢慢的把不习惯变成习惯。


女孩整理遗物时发现了一个献血证，上面写着男孩的名字。奇怪的是她从来不知道，男孩在一个月连续献了三次血，上面献血的日期更让她震惊,她清楚地记得，永远也忘不了那段他们最艰苦的日子。她明白了那段日子男孩的身体为何那么虚弱，明白了男孩“预付的工资”的含义，明白了男孩是用偷偷献血的换来钱给她买来她喜欢吃的东西。女孩继续整理遗物时，发现了一份报纸，意外地发现那场大地震时，那位伟大的母亲就是男孩的母亲，那个幸运获得生命的孩子就是男孩，而男孩又把这份幸运给了她。

女孩泪水涟涟。




A girl is texting to a boy.
Girl: If you are poor and only left a bowl of porridge for both of us in the house, will you give it to me?
Boy: I still need to answer it if you already know the answer? But I think a boy who truly love the girl should not let his beloved woman had such a life.
Girl: But there is a boy answer it like this. He said no! He will give all the porridge to his beloved women. I don't know will this short answer touch all the girls out there, but it really touched me.
Boy: So if this only bowl of porridge finished, how would the boy do now? ! Or he got ever think of what he can do if the girl is still hungry after finished the only porridge?
The girl thinks that the boy should answer it the same way like the other boy did.
Girl: No! I will give all the porridge to you. This is the only and prefect answer for my question.
Because the boy didn't answer the question in the way that the girl wants so they slept back to back at the night. She is rufesing him while he want to hug her in the arm.God is always there to joke around with people.


Later on, they were together and for various reasons,they really have to suffer where there is only a bowl of porridge for both of them.On that day, the boy quietly leave a message to the girl: "Honey, I've eaten, and there is a bowl of porridge on the table. Finish it."When the girl finished it, she took a rest. During that, the boy came back from outside. He brings back some mutton strings, fruits and milk. This is all her favourite foods. The boy told the girl that he get a temporary job and had just earned some money meanwhile the boss agreed to pay part of the wages. He shows her all the wages he earned. "Dear eat slowly! I have eaten at outside just now ." Showing a naughty grimace after he said that. During this dates, the girl is very happy being with the boy. But the boy seemed weaker and tired because of working.


After that, the boy get employed. They have a nicer view for their future. The girl like to watch TV, she saw a TV coverage about a major earthquake many years ago. A mother and children were crushed under the debris. The mother feeds milk to the child. When there is no more milk, the mother opened her own hand's blood vessels and feeds the child with her own blood. Few days later, the rescue team found them but the mother can't made it meanwhile the children is given a new hope. The girl ask the boy, if the two of us were facing the same situation, will you do the same to me like the mother did? The boy was agitated. He said to the girl, do not always have such a strange idea, ok? You are my woman, I will do my best to let u happy and protect you. You are my favorite, I will not allow you to use all kinds of bad guess on yourself.


During a weekend, it was a sunny morning, he holds her hand and went to shopping for the whole morning. He bought many snacks and clothes for her. On their way home, they need to go through an intersection. He is holding her meanwhile carrying things that they bought on his other hand. When they are crossing the zebra line, suddenly a car drive through them with high speed. "Bang!" after that follow by the car emergency brake sounds. It come all of a sudden, the one who get hit fly two meters away. The road full of glaring red blood. "No! Don't!" The girl is crying and screaming as the girl is still conscious. She realised that the car suppose to hit her but in an instant reaction of ordinary people at zero to a few seconds, the boy push her a side and end up himself lying in a pool of blood. She went to his side and keep on calling his name. He is covered up with blood. Onlookers told her that he is not breathing, no point keep calling his name. She do not believe it, so she continue to call his name. The boy miraculously opened his eyes and look at her, with a serene smile then he closed his eyes. She knews that he is still struggling for the last breath , to see his little woman is in safe.


It was a rainy season, everywhere was full of moisture. The love nest they build now only left the girl. The sweet memories between both of them is floating in her mind. She regret that last time she slept back to back with the boy and refuse him to hug her because he is not answering her question according to what she wants. Now she really want to hug him tightly compensate for that night. But it is too late. The girl used to surrounded by the boy, holding her hand tightly when crossing the road and no need to worry about the traffic. She want to seize that sense of security again but it already not there now. Before she sleep, she used to listen to stories and singing songs from the boy to fall asleep but now no one is there to tell the stories and singing for her. It made her hard to sleep all the time. She had a habit of kicking the quilt when asleep. The boy is always there to re-cover her everytime she kick off the quilt. Now that person can no longer help her with it. Meanwhile she likes to eat snacks. The boy will always give her a little surprise by buying those snacks for her everytime he returned to home. But now for so many days passed, she didn't eat any snacks. She likes to eat Guazi, chestnut, orange but don't likes to peeling.The boy used to help her with it. Now, because peeling those things too strenuous, and she did not even dared to touch those things. There are too many things she not accustomed to, now she could only learn to slowly become accustomed.


When she organized his hangover, she found a blood donation certificate, written above the boy's name. The strange thing is that she never knew, the boy donated his blood for 3times in a month. She is shock by the donation date. She clearly remembers it and never forget that time was their most difficult days. She understood the days when the boy's body could be so weak.
She understand the "advance wages" of the boy means, she know that he is secretly donating blood in exchange for money to buy her something she likes to eat. She also found a newspaper, surprised to find that during the major earthquake, The great mother is the boy's mother, that child is given a new hope. And the boy is giving his hope to the girl.


She cried.



Finally!! I finished the translation!! It look harder then you think it is. I'm sure that the translation got a lot of error spelling and so on. Haha... Hope you all not mind about it.

OK! Come back to the interesting thing, the E-mail. I... actually exprienced before. It just the question parts. My ex last time used to ask me something almost same as this. But each time I also can't answer it the way she wanna to be. So lame hor ? And end up, she is not happy and I'm trying to made her happy then few days later all ok liao. Some people said, girls like to listen for sweet things say by their love one. It is true! And I really can understand that. But different girls different types of sweet so boys always do it wrong and kena at the end. Haha..poor us. It can be... boys are lame and noob. Haha... but do you ever think before? Did boys really understand what a girl is thinking? and what she want the most? When come across some question, what answer she is expecting from boy? A lot of questi0n marks hor...@@ Same case for the girls. Did you all really know what a boy need? want? So here come a solution !! Deng Deng Deng DENG...! Understand each others! Say it out what you want and what you expecting for both the girls and boys. I know! In this way, girls will think it ain't romatic at all. Haha... i guess so. How about we made it 50% 50%. Sometimes you said it and sometimes you don't. But when someone gets wrong please don't be angry. Haha... And there is one more thing, people think that in a relationship sure and is a 100% got arguement only the relationship will last long. Will it be the reason why girls like to ask those questions and expecting the same answer as they want from boys? I started to blur liao with all this things. xD... And...IF... the boys answer you the way you expected, is it really from the buttom of his heart? or...just...? Left some imagination space for you all. Haha...

A true love comes in contact with a lot of things. Not only sweet talks, expected answers and lot more but it come from the heart, understanding for each others, forgiveness, actions,appreciation and more but not the less trust. That's why hor when people in love, most of them really trusting each other even got 1 side did something bad also they don't know. Mostly boys are the naughty one la... Haha... But there is a lot of good people also. So you can't said all boys are bad. xD

Question that girls asked, not wrong actually just don't so fast get angry la. I know girls angry because they really care. But do you all ever think about it when you are angry, boys sure get upset too. The crack start to form here. Slowly many problems come out liao.

Try to understand each others feeling, learn how to forgive and listen to the one you love when their trying to explain the situation or problems. Don't think it too toward the negative side, it is bad as well. Every problems got it own solution. Don't be rush. Appeciate what you had.

Thats me

So... actually I don't know how to start off with my blog title at the first. Then now, I was confusing with the title and the contents of the blog...hahaha... But any how lets start with the day after my last post. I skip my class again on Thursday with the reason when I woke up around 7am , I boiling some water and in a sudden I told myself that I'm tired. So I switched off the boiler and head back to sleep again...fantastic right ? Hahahaha...

I had a nice chat with a friend of mine in the msn. We been chatting a lot of things, in some how we started the topic where we talking our past love life. I mean not so details but i do really told her what had been hapen to me, my past love life. She said that if she were my ex she possibly do the same thing that she does. That means the whole problem maybe from me or just the timing not so good. Well, or we said it that, there is no fate on us. So now I'm accepting the whole things, the facts. I started to think what my brother had told me. Maybe he is so right like what I had mentioned earlier in my post. I should be ok ... Hahaha...

Then we started off with the attitude thing. Hahaha... I think she really met lot of funny attitude guys. In this world, there are really a lot of different people with lot of different attitude. She once said that I had this mature thinking. I'm happy that she said so...Hahaha... But i really do admin it, my thinking are really different from who I am now. Maybe because my family caused me to all that. Then the people i met, no matter how old are they, the way they think, the way they speak, and the experience that they had. They shared it and it made me a better person. The way i think, the way i speak some how a lot of friend of mine said that i can think logically, then i met with my brothers who think the same way as I do most of the time, thats why we call ourself as borthers. Hahaha... but sometime attitude or personality of mine ain't so good. My ex once told me that, what I'm saying is so true so logic so everyhing that i had told her, teach her, she follow the same way as a solution. After that she think that, I'm like giving her orders to follow the way i like the solution to be. She loss her ability to choose the solution or the ending she wanted to be because I'm giving orders to her. Even it is not a order but she thinks it is nice to follow it because it is logic and true, so she just follow it. Thats all. Everytime i told her, all the decision are made by the one who having the situation on it but not other people. Other people only can give you advice, some opinions but you are not necessary to follow what had this people told you.

Damn... I'm digging the past. I should be accepting this whole things and made it become a memory of mine but not digging it out. Hahaha... but it is a part of me. This is who I really are. My thinking, my attitude, my personality...i thinks the people who know me well, they really do know all of this. Hahaha...so this all past things, actually I'm ok with it. I really accepting the thing. New life is ahead. Hahaha...

And by the way, there is one more thing. People said time heals but i think the most important thing that heal youself is youself...Hahaha... Time is just a limit for youself to heal youself. If the person who are strong enough, he/she will heal in maybe 1 month, that is the limit I'm talking about. So, be strong. If you failed in you career or love life and you are totally sad, time won't heal but youself are healing you. Be open minded, accepting the fact like what I'm doing now. You will be lot more happy in this way. Family, friends, brothers are there for you... to help you with your healing process...xD